Insanity Day 53

Insanity Workout: Max Interval Circuit

Before I start writing on how my day and workout went, it’s not normal for me to feel the way I did today.  It’s also not normal for me to sound like a such a downer as well.  I think it’s important for me not to hold back anything because it’s apart of my journey and it can happen to anyone.

Well where should I start?  I woke up much later than I intended to and all I felt like doing was to lay in bed and be lazy.  Of course I can’t do that.  As much as I wanted to get my workout in before work, I didn’t do it.  I also had a strange night at work.  Being that I work during dinnertime, I had a later dinner when I got out and had to wait a little for my food to settle before I worked out.

Here is the part of my day that I was not sure that I wanted to write about.  I had a late workout and again, all I wanted to do was just relax.  I started my workout and I noticed that I was a bit off in both the physical and mental aspect.  I felt like I was a newbie all over again because I was having difficulty with my form.  I felt out of sync, as if I was “half-assing” it.  I was getting very frustrated with myself and I was still only in the warm-up.  Mentally I wanted to quit at that point.  Because of my frustrations with my form and my lack of energy, I felt so weak and I pretty much broke down in the middle of the warm-up.

Once again, it’s not normal for this to happen to me during a workout.  In my head, I had one part telling me to “stop and just start again tomorrow” and another telling me to “keep going, you can do this and you will regret quitting during the workout.  You worked so hard to get to where you are at now and it will all pay off at the end when you get to your goal.”  I sucked it up and kept going.  As I kept going, I found myself gaining my form back and pushing harder and harder.  I was not at the point I wanted to be by the end of the workout but I finished strong and I’m very happy I did not quit.  I definitely would have regretted it if I had quit.

This was for sure the toughest workout I had to get through.  It was not the way I wanted to start off my week and I wonder if having a day off or if the weekend throws me off.  Either way, it’s no excuse for not working hard during a workout, let alone finish a workout.  I have worked too hard to get where I am right now and I know I have to work even harder to get to where I want to be.  Everything happens for a reason and I think the reason for what happened tonight is to make me even more stronger.  Who knows.  All I know is I am not going to quit.  I am not going to let one workout get the best of me.  Tomorrow is a new day and I have to remember with each new day, it’s a chance to make it one of the best days of my life.  That is how I am going to try to treat each day from now on.  You never know if it can actually be the best day of your life.

With that being said, I’m planning on waking up early tomorrow so I can workout in the morning.  No more late workouts for me from now on unless I absolutely have to.  There is no reason I should not be able to wake up early and not get my workout done early.  It’s time to really dig deep this week.

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